I want to forget my first love and start a new life

As-salamu `Alaykum warahmatullah wabarakatuh (May Allah's Peace, Mercy, and Blessings be upon you!).

I knew a young man who loved me so much and I loved him too. I told my mother about him, and he asked to propose to me.

He came to see my family, but his mother came to destroy everything between us. She threatened my mother and told her: If your daughter does not stay away from my son, I will submit charges against you.

His family members quarreled with one another because of the attitude of the mother because she deceived them by showing content, but when she got there, she spoiled everything.

My mother commanded me to forget that man and cut my relationship with him. The man tried hard to correct this misunderstanding, but his mother blocked the way.

A year has elapsed but my heart is still attached with that man. He cut his relationship with his family and he only paid a weekly visit to them so as not to cut the ties of kinship.

He keeps on sending me e-mails every day telling me that he still loves me and cannot forget me.

Many young men have proposed to me, but I rejected them all because I still in love with that man. The biggest problem is that when a religious and well-mannered person proposed to me, I said no but my family forced me to be engaged to him. Despite all my tries to spoil that engagement, my family kept on treating me harsh and forced me to marry that man.

From within, I am convinced that my relationship with the first man has become impossible and will not succeed but after the permission of Allah (Glory be to Him) because my family will not approve my marriage and his mother either.

Some time elapsed since the engagement, but I still do not love him and I feel terrible because of the way I treat him, for he does not deserve it. I have tried to accept him, but the first man is still in my heart and mind.

I got tired and I feel like dead because of the state of depression and despair that possess me.

I want to forget that love and start a new clean life; I do not know what to do. I want a solution to my problem.