I discovered the cheat of my husband but he sued me for adultery!

As-salamu `Alaykum warahmatullah wabarakatuh (May Allah's Peace, Mercy, and Blessings be upon you!)

I have been married seventeen years ago and I have children. My relationship with my husband was full of happiness then troubles started to come up between us: It started by cutting the relationship between him and my family then problems continued for years.

There was an educational and financial difference between us nevertheless I helped him a lot and purchased a piece of land for him with my money so as not to feel that difference.

When I knew about his cheating on me, I faced him, but he denied then the maid came to me and told me that he tried to rape her more than once. Then I knew the worst which was: He had raped several maids before and two of them got pregnant and aborted their pregnancy. When I knew, I left home and went to my family. However, after the intercession of all people, his apology, and his false promises, I came back home and tried to improve myself and avoid any defect he may see.

Nevertheless, his conditions were still the same: Once I entered the house and caught him with the maid. I ran to my family's house and asked for divorce without mentioning the reason; thereafter he took the children and the maid and sued me for adultery and the maid was the main witness.

Today, I am alone and deprived of my children waiting for the verdict of the court. I see that the world is owned by powerful and evil people. What hurts me more is my feeling of guilt toward my children despite my knowledge that there is no way to continue marital life in this way.

What I need is truthful and clear speech perhaps my pain and torture be reduced.